
I need all of my closest friends to know how I'm actually faring, and this is as good a place as any to start explaining.
Mostly, I am doing very well. I'm financially secure for now, I have a lovely new home, I've got good stuff to look forward to this summer and my boyfriend very sweet and peachy and keen and so on.
The only problem is my health. Lately I've had trouble concentrating on the most trivial things. I get confused, and frustrated because I'm confused. I get terrible hot flashes, which exacerbate the other sympoms. I get unnaturally tired and I haven't been able to excercise properly for a few weeks now. The lack of excercise makes me more prone to mood swings and crankyness. The allergies, which are just about to kick in, will make things worse - they make me more tired, cranky, weak and disoriented when they are in full swing.
Basically, my life has become a lot more managable, but I've become less able to manage it.
I'm getting another MRI this summer, hopefully before my doctor goes on vacation. I don't have any of the typical symptoms like numbness or weakness in any part of the body (except my brain), so the doctor is somewhat hesitant to do anything. Hopefully, whether they find anything new in the MRI pictures or not, I will be able to take MS-specific drugs to help me get this episode behind me. These drugs could be daily pills or weekly shots, I don't really know what he's got in mind.
All I ask of my nearest and dearest is that you do not expect as much of me as you might have before. I cannot expend too much energy on planning gatherings and parties this summer. I do want to meet as many of you as possible and do all kinds of fun things, and you're all welcome at my house any time! Just remember to call me first to check if my condition is good enough, or whether I'm taking a nap, et.c. Don't be suprised if I have to stop and sit down at weird times, just give me ten minutes and then we can go on doing whatever.
Don't be afraid to keep in touch!